Turbulent Times

Those of you close to me know that there have been life changing circumstances in my life that have had me not quite myself lately! I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and dammit I have a new book out! "My Husband's Fiancee" was released on Oct. 20th and its thankfully getting really good reviews and selling well!!! I've written the first three chapters to the sequel to "Take it There" and for the first time in a few months - I'm writing a blog!! It's been a ROUGH three months, but it's time to get back to work!

This brings me around to the topic of strength and being grateful for what you have. For the last three months my life has literally been turned upside down. I dealt with the death of my aunt who left behind several minor children to be taken care of. Between my husband and I, my mother and my grandmother we've managed to keep four brothers close together and in safe, happy homes. Thank God for that.

I keep hearing "What you are doing is so great," "you are a saint," "those boys are lucky to have family like you guys." But honestly most days its a thankless, daunting task that feels as far from "good" as anything can get. At the end of the day, I'm doing what God has called me to do out of love for my aunt and knowing that if something were to happen to me my closest family members would step up and do the same for my children.

When it was just me, my husband and our two kids I would complain. I'd complain that having two kids has changed the game. I was so overwhelmed and felt I never had a moment to myself. Well, now that my household went from four people to nine in the blink of an eye, I realize I was so ungrateful before. If I thought I was overwhelmed THEN?? Back then I would've never thought I could handle another four kids in the house...but I am. I'm doing it. I'm stronger than I thought!! (My mom has also moved into the house temporarily and my husband helps too, but even so...its a lot on ALL of us)

I am so thankful today to have such a wonderful and supportive family. I'm thankful for my children and my little cousins. I'm thankful for the opportunity to get to know them better too! I love them very much.

But, back to business!!